2002-10-15 9:02 a.m.

I was out sick yesterday...I slept almost all day. Being in bed is a fight between boredom and succumbing to -- falling in and surrendering to -- that boredom.

What is happening is really a dance -- a balancing act -- between two dangerous, opposite poles: fighting boredom and accepting boredom.

The danger of being bored is that I will be compelled to pace around the house all day and tinker with various projects and not get any rest -- and I will surely not get better any faster. The danger of letting myself sink into my bed and the warm quicksands of boredom is that inertia takes over so quickly. I might never leave my bed again. A body at rest tends to remain at rest. Inaction has powerful gravity which I find difficult to overcome once I have succumbed to it even slightly.

Now I am back at work and I feel a little bit dizzy. I think the cold medicine I took to help myself fall asleep last night is just sort of hitting me now. The world spins a little.

With the world spinning and tilting slightly, at least I won't be bored at work!


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